Grande Passion

2012-01-12T14:28:00.002Z

"Ce grand malheur, de ne pouvoir être seul" Jean de la Bruyère

2012-01-02T20:01:00.002Z

“what matters most is
how well you
walk through the
fire.”

- Charles Bukowski, from “how is your heart?”

2011-11-11T18:54:00.000Z

警告逃夫：你在擁擠咖啡店內詢問是否能坐在我身旁｜你在桌子上放下一雙厚重麂皮手套像是剛從溫暖小動物身上剝下｜你在週日下午五點打開報紙等桌上熱茶變涼｜今日開始下雨了而且會下到葉子脫光經過冬天直到冒出新芽才會停止｜我單方面相信你可以改變我的世界。

2011-11-10T06:04:00.000Z

你好嗎？最難的過去以後，他們問。很好的，除了那些間歇式的絕望。你不會的，不應該的，你值得的，怎麼會呢？過去以後，你也問自己，怎麼會呢？退出來一步就好了，為什麼要這麼認真，一切都是偶然、隨意的，誰也不是故意、刻意的，放鬆點。別想太多。可以的。

但我是。我明知道的，我還是犯錯了。我不僅僅是不能原諒他人，我的強項是不能原諒自己。

2011-10-31T22:31:00.000Z

2008/10/20

怎樣才是偉大的人﹖偉大的人是能忍受無聊﹐在其中也有自己燦爛的世界。那是在最小的最小的事情中見偉大﹐而不是在半死不活的無聊中當自己了不起。偉大的人是自己知道自己偉大﹐但無所謂他人覺得他渺小。我還在等麼﹖另一個故事的開始﹖但我想要的似乎都得到了﹐其它的只是會殺死我的好奇作祟而已。

2011-09-10T04:03:00.002+01:00

I die somewhere. somehow. for sometimes. nobody knows.

2011-09-05T23:17:00.000+01:00

But I'm a director. I know how to play mind games with myself.

2011-08-06T01:35:00.002+01:00

那愛是貨真價實的－但仍然是個殘忍的玩笑。

2011-08-01T06:25:00.002+01:00

I don't know you anymore.

2011-07-16T18:26:00.002+01:00

我嚴厲、我浪漫、我不切實際、我殺人犯。

2011-07-14T00:24:00.000+01:00

I know you. I don't know who you are. I don't know what you look like. But I know you. And I know why you are here.

2011-07-05T20:33:00.000+01:00

"Here we are now, entertain us"

2011-07-05T19:16:00.002+01:00

Give me something to wake up to.

2011-07-01T21:13:00.000+01:00

The dream that I dream, I dream alone. and I'm alone in that dream.

2011-06-12T20:15:00.001+01:00

有人在說話。有人在場。

有人在笑。有人在假裝。

The Glorious Process of Finding True Love.

2011-06-11T04:46:00.002+01:00

Com'n. One more time.

2011-06-03T21:20:00.002+01:00

I want to call every number in the yellow pages until i find you. when that happens you wouldn't even need to speak then i know it's you. you are not even in this country. in my city. you don't even exists.

2011-06-02T20:21:00.000+01:00

I would love you as we love the dead,

the hopeless love that ask no return.

Never ending. Never changing.

Where time can't reach. Heart can't be hurt.

2011-05-21T21:32:00.002+01:00

With or without you. I'm always alone.

2011-05-20T21:07:00.000+01:00

I like you. Let's go for a ride. See how long it lasts.

2011-05-19T19:39:00.000+01:00

The lies we told, the cloth we wore; The hearts we break and the things we do.

2011-05-18T04:11:00.002+01:00

Goodbye. I'm happy that I've never had you because I know it would kill me when I lose you, if you do exist.

2011-05-15T20:28:00.003+01:00

We can't survive us.

2011-05-09T19:40:00.001+01:00

2011-04-30T18:16:00.001+01:00

2011-04-30T02:14:00.003+01:00

she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing.

2011-04-30T01:43:00.001+01:00

Let's lose our mind.

2011-04-25T03:10:00.002+01:00

I'm waiting for something that's not going to happen.

2011-04-22T02:51:00.003+01:00

and I'll kill you just as you had killed me.

2011-04-15T12:42:00.003+01:00

as you bleed in despair.

2011-04-14T22:54:00.002+01:00

We are all ashes when the past is on fire.

2011-04-04T23:04:00.002+01:00

he keeps on lying to your face until you laugh.

2011-04-03T22:41:00.006+01:00

Because I knew.

2011-03-11T21:10:00.002Z

Don't need this. But I want this. Why can't I have this. Should have this. Only if I have this. But why do I keep at this. Maybe I don't need this. I don't need to want this.

2011-03-10T04:49:00.000Z

She comes, then she leaves. She left that sour taste in your mouth. All the times in the universe. All the stars would have been useless.

2011-03-06T16:01:00.000Z

If you still wants me. I'll be back in the winter. We'll share some warmth together, spend our time together. It will not mean anything. It doesn't have to mean anything. We'll love each other as we love all these strangers.

2011-02-25T17:12:00.002Z

2011-01-14T10:45:00.003Z

他對她保證。

蜘蛛我殺。如果你吃完所有薯條還不夠﹐我會和你分享我那份。我甚至不會把領子立起來。當你肚子咕咕叫的時候 - 我不會對它無禮﹐我會低頭好好地回應。我們點總彙比薩的時候我會吃掉所有的蘑菇。我會親吻你被紙割傷和被門夾住的手指。和撞上桌子的屁股。電影裡你在我耳邊表達意見和問題時﹐我會盡全力不感到厭煩。我會做你的大湯匙。我會讓你在摔角時勝利。有時。有時不。我會更快。很用力。你要求我會馬上退出。你要我留住我會逗你。我會不時傳簡訊和送傻氣的禮物給你。不是常常。不照日期。只在那些我想要的時候。那些當我覺得你需要個禮物的時候。或七個。我會測試你的胎壓。提醒你的車該送檢了。我會握你的手。我會愛你。會愛你。愛你。

his pledge to her.

i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle, i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger. and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling. sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random txts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you.

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2011-01-10T10:53:00.003Z

閉著眼靠在他的背上，尋找一些熟悉的感覺。除此以外還有甚麼呢。所有無用的浪漫情懷。反正它已經開始了，有甚麼理由不讓它繼續。總有些淚意。有些令人想哭的甚麼，不在這裡，在其它地方，隱約感覺到它，折了一半又一半⋯⋯ 他問我怎麼了。我說不上來。甚麼也沒有，親愛的，甚麼也沒有了。就是那樣。

2011-01-05T16:31:00.003Z

Breath in. Breath out. Nowhere. Nothing.

2011-01-05T09:56:00.005Z

Is better than just peace.

2011-01-03T17:36:00.001Z

2010-12-16T09:19:00.003Z

But you can't even speak of what love is, innit?

2010-11-24T23:07:00.000Z

I will (stare at you / not move) for all eternity and beyond.

Pop Quiz

2010-11-20T18:05:00.001Z

You (want / hate) everything you (don't / can't) have.

2010-11-20T05:55:00.003Z

I bet.

2010-11-14T20:39:00.000Z

i don't love you. but you are terribly strange. i would like to try.

2010-11-14T18:16:00.003Z

忘記的事情不必記起。

2010-11-08T05:24:00.000Z

All; But a game.

2010-11-07T19:54:00.001Z

All these years.

2010-11-07T07:54:00.000Z

How's it gonna end?

2010-11-06T18:47:00.002Z

Maybe I can, but why should I

2010-11-06T07:05:00.001Z

Trust me for who I'm not.

2010-11-05T19:00:00.001Z

Don't worry about it.

2010-11-04T05:58:00.002Z

Now leave me please.

2010-10-27T20:29:00.002+01:00

my, eternal imaginary lover.

2010-10-25T23:26:00.000+01:00

"...THERE WERE ONLY A WILD FERMENT,

A POWER THAT TWISTING IN DARK PASSIONS

PRODUCED EVERYTHING GREAT OR INCONSEQUENTIAL..."

2010-10-24T23:16:00.000+01:00

「So you just want me to fuck off? Is that it?」

「Yes, pretty much. Yes. 」

2010-10-20T07:49:00.001+01:00

The Plague - Camus

2010-10-18T06:38:00.002+01:00

2010-10-12T05:29:00.001+01:00

SPEAK TO THE MACHINE - 《HOLLYWOOD》Bukowski

2010-10-09T04:15:00.002+01:00

I'll pillow you.

2010-10-07T08:00:00.004+01:00

If you can read this, you look too close.

2010-10-06T01:28:00.000+01:00

it was me. yet it wasn't me.

2010-10-01T22:41:00.001+01:00

Why should I? I'm a mermaid and my dad owns Maserati.

2010-09-30T23:25:00.000+01:00

”Jesus loves you. But He is not in love with you."

2010-09-24T04:48:00.000+01:00

You own me 12 dollars.

2010-09-22T07:44:00.002+01:00

"After a bit you realize there's only one invaluable commodity. Not gold or love, but time."

2010-09-20T00:17:00.001+01:00

Don't lie to me. I don't believe you. That's fair.

2010-09-12T07:04:00.002+01:00

2010-09-09T18:13:00.002+01:00

You will love me.

I wouldn't take no for an answer.

2010-09-09T00:38:00.000+01:00

Too short for cruelty. Too long for love.

2010-09-02T18:59:00.000+01:00

Quality time.

2010-09-02T00:50:00.002+01:00

Albert Camus: There is but one truly serious philosophical problem, and that is suicide.

2010-08-30T22:54:00.000+01:00

Emotional deaf.

2010-08-24T19:08:00.003+01:00

How sweet is despair! To just sit and observe

my life happens before, behind

and beside me. All meant to be.

2010-08-22T22:30:00.001+01:00

Eventually she doesn't love anymore. She stand smile and watch.

2010-08-22T08:08:00.003+01:00

no shit.

2010-08-11T23:34:00.000+01:00

‎"I shall hang myself to the sound of my lover's breathing."

2010-08-08T02:06:00.001+01:00

他們都怪罪她的冷漠﹐從沒想過是自己並不可愛。

2010-08-06T02:17:00.000+01:00

無法保持誠實而不殘忍。於是﹐什麼也不說。像兩把剃刀一樣躺在床的兩端﹐等著夜更冰冷﹐身體變硬﹐僵死過去。沒有誰真的沒有誰不行﹐它很清楚。不過是沒有更大好奇﹐更大吸引。沒有勇氣。這的確是殘忍的遊戲﹐它想﹐可惜規則並不是由我決定。

2010-07-06T00:32:00.000+01:00

問題就是，你坐在這裡死亡，但還沒有死掉。

2010-07-05T20:02:00.002+01:00

我想去那個世界，我知道卻在這裡找不到的那個世界。那個巨大的黑夜。那裡的那隻鬼，它也不在這裡，我卻不斷地不斷地嘗試…… 錯誤認知。

2010-06-29T22:41:00.000+01:00

Nadav Kander 的國度，殘雪的國度。見山不是山，見水不似水；見人不像人，見鬼不像鬼的國度。開門出去是一個橫立的井，黑黝黝的遠方映見的是自己月白的臉，浮浮沉沉。我在樓上樓下翻天覆地的找你。分辨不出那聲音是從哪裡來。我站在斷了一半的大樓切面邊上期待你，面前是無止盡的瓦礫和廢墟。你來麼，你來麼？我問著向你寫一封封信，折成不成篇的紙飛機。讓我們都以為還有什麼，這個假象可以燃燒很久。

2010-06-20T04:51:00.000+01:00

He will sell you for a price he doesn't even know.

2010-06-20T03:49:00.000+01:00

他知道她做了什麼。就像此刻月光照在她睡臉上。她圍著圍裙在桌子前，一顆顆撥開那些豆子。她能給你的就是這樣，你要嗎？你還是會接受。早上一吻像是她送你出去，每次都是你和她的告別，把她還給她自己的世界。她會在那個世界與他人同樂，你是旁邊拿打光板的。甚至連這也不能。她早將一切細細密密埋起，那地底世界只有她自己知道洞口在那裡。

2010-06-14T20:36:00.001+01:00

她從那時候開始用“你”稱呼自己。從此把自己的生活寫成一個故事，站在旁邊看身為自己的“你”過著怎樣的生活，遇見怎樣的人，有什麼想法和遭遇。你看的很淡因為旁觀者輕，你告訴自己其實都沒有關係，你把自己壓在紙上於是痛苦和快樂都不這麼切身。你立志寫一個拿得出手的故事，也可以隨時退一步捨棄和架構－做作品或作品後面的手。

2010-05-17T22:16:00.001+01:00

solo

wake up, take a shower, breakfast, coffee and reading, writing, light lunch, nap, dinner, cinema, communication, writing, reading, sleep.

doppio

wake up, make love, shower, full breakfast, coffee and chat, walking, lunch, nap, fuck, nap, shower, dinner, cinema, chat, cuddling and communication, sleep.

2010-05-12T21:10:00.000+01:00

HAPPY TOGETHER

2010-05-12T01:42:00.003+01:00

I'll take it anyways.

2010-04-27T20:10:00.003+01:00

獻媚的重點是有媚可獻，不然只能獻醜。

2010-04-27T19:15:00.001+01:00

右邊男子身負循環性病但不以為意，左邊男子平日樂趣是與餐廳女服務生攀談；對彼此無法理清的性騷動，令兩人忍不住了就對身邊人/物施行平庸暴力。

2010-04-25T21:49:00.001+01:00

1 - 而那當然是致命的。他的快樂全來自幫助他人﹐他人的幸福便是他自己的幸福﹐他人的快樂便是他的快樂﹐他人的笑臉﹐也就是他的笑臉了。但她的生命價值卻是受苦。他永遠不會在她身上得到任何快樂。倒是她還可以得到一些自我折磨的快感。

2 他自然很成功﹐因為他從不做其他想。他可以為你畫出所有通往成功的路﹐但你實在說不出那有什麼特別。畢竟閱讀地圖是沒有樂趣的 - 就算有也不是這種只有一條路的地圖﹕倒是可以附上很多置入性行銷﹕名校﹐名車﹐名牌﹐名女人。

3 她最大的痛苦便是來自一個父母相愛的家庭。她一直認為婚姻就是如此﹐人生就會如此。不是如此的時候她仍抱著一樣的想法﹐並用盡全副心力維持、將所有可能導入她認為的人生正道。但她嫁了一個隨心所欲的丈夫﹐最大的樂趣就是不按牌理出牌。

2010-04-25T03:49:00.000+01:00

We die. We die rich with lovers and tribes, tastes we have swallowed, bodies we've entered and swum up like rivers. Fears we've hidden in - like this wretched cave. I want all this marked on my body. Where the real countries are. Not boundaries drawn on maps with the names of powerful men. I know you'll come carry me out to the Palace of Winds. That's what I've wanted: to walk in such a place with you. With friends, on an earth without maps.

2010-04-23T07:35:00.002+01:00

2010-04-21T00:00:00.000+01:00

look at me. look at me closely. you know that i meant to leave.

2010-04-18T02:03:00.001+01:00

Every voice you make sounds like soon. soon. soon..

2010-04-16T21:44:00.000+01:00

Glimpse of Happiness.

2010-04-16T15:06:00.003+01:00

誰都可以為誰辯護。誰都可以有任何角度。誰都可以擁有信念。創造信念。加於信念。誰都可以。但沒有。我們從來沒有真正配得什麼。

2010-04-13T19:55:00.000+01:00

They both folded. sitting on two sides of the table. a stand off with no result. with shots fired. the pain is there and elsewhere. red spot pours on the ground like a cutoff tongue struggle to say more. they sit in silence. they sit in dark. they sit for someone will make some kind of a call.