"Ce grand malheur, de ne pouvoir être seul" Jean de la Bruyère

“what matters most is
how well you
walk through the
fire.”

- Charles Bukowski, from “how is your heart?”

警告逃夫：你在擁擠咖啡店內詢問是否能坐在我身旁｜你在桌子上放下一雙厚重麂皮手套像是剛從溫暖小動物身上剝下｜你在週日下午五點打開報紙等桌上熱茶變涼｜今日開始下雨了而且會下到葉子脫光經過冬天直到冒出新芽才會停止｜我單方面相信你可以改變我的世界。

你好嗎？最難的過去以後，他們問。很好的，除了那些間歇式的絕望。你不會的，不應該的，你值得的，怎麼會呢？過去以後，你也問自己，怎麼會呢？退出來一步就好了，為什麼要這麼認真，一切都是偶然、隨意的，誰也不是故意、刻意的，放鬆點。別想太多。可以的。

但我是。我明知道的，我還是犯錯了。我不僅僅是不能原諒他人，我的強項是不能原諒自己。

2008/10/20

怎樣才是偉大的人﹖偉大的人是能忍受無聊﹐在其中也有自己燦爛的世界。那是在最小的最小的事情中見偉大﹐而不是在半死不活的無聊中當自己了不起。偉大的人是自己知道自己偉大﹐但無所謂他人覺得他渺小。我還在等麼﹖另一個故事的開始﹖但我想要的似乎都得到了﹐其它的只是會殺死我的好奇作祟而已。

I die somewhere. somehow. for sometimes. nobody knows.

But I'm a director.  I know how to play mind games with myself.

那愛是貨真價實的 － 但仍然是個殘忍的玩笑。

I don't know you anymore. 

我嚴厲、我浪漫、我不切實際、我殺人犯。

I know you.  I don't know who you are.  I don't know what you look like.  But I know you.  And I know why you are here.

"Here we are now, entertain us"

Give me something to wake up to.

The dream that I dream, I dream alone.  and I'm alone in that dream.  

有人在說話。有人在場。

有人在笑。有人在假裝。

The Glorious Process of Finding True Love.

Com'n.  One more time.

I want to call every number in the yellow pages until i find you. when that happens you wouldn't even need to speak then i know it's you. you are not even in this country. in my city. you don't even exists.

I would love you as we love the dead, 

the hopeless love that ask no return.  

Never ending.  Never changing.

Where time can't reach.  Heart can't be hurt. 

With or without you. I'm always alone. 

I like you.  Let's go for a ride.  See how long it lasts.

The lies we told, the cloth we wore;  The hearts we break and the things we do.  

Goodbye.  I'm happy that I've never had you because I know it would kill me when I lose you, if you do exist.

We can't survive us.

she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing.

Let's lose our mind.

I'm waiting for something that's not going to happen.

and I'll kill you just as you had killed me.

as you bleed in despair.

We are all ashes when the past is on fire.

he keeps on lying to your face until you laugh.

Because I knew.

Don't need this.  But I want this.  Why can't I have this.  Should have this.  Only if I have this.  But why do I keep at this.  Maybe I don't need this.  I don't need to want this.